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Our pastor has been preaching through the words of Jesus that he spoke on the cross. I haven’t written much about it in my journal. I have not really been there mentally or emotionally. I had looked forward to the series, but I’m just too burned out and past the point of tired to really be all there. Is it a simple case of burn out and fatigue, or have I become so distant from God that the crucifixion and the Resurrection have faded from my life? I haven’t read the Bible in ages. Heck, I still have a few chapters to go before I finish the Bible-in-a-year plan I started in January of 2010! And the delay is not because I have been in deep reflection of what I read. I just don’t read anymore. I have been reading other books, but not God’s word.

So, Resurrection Sunday will come and go and I won’t stop to reflect. Nice.

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The pastor ended the sermon focused on how God prepared Joshua for his new leadership position. In Exodus 33:11, God’s word says this,  “The LORD would speak to Moses face to face, as one speaks to a friend. Then Moses would return to the camp, but his young aide Joshua son of Nun did not leave the tent.” So, even years before God was planning on promoting Joshua, he was preparing him, alone, in his presence. And when it was Joshua’s time to take the reins, God reminded him of what he considers success – “Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Keep this Book of the Law always on your lips; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.” (Joshua 1:7-8)

I came to the conclusion yesterday that I don’t meditate on God or his word day and night. Sometimes neither day nor night for that matter! My mind just goes wherever it wants. I’ll try to focus on God and his stuff, but all the sudden, minutes or hours later, I’ll wake up and realize my mind has gone off the track. I am reminded of a passage that used to mean something to me – “For everything that was written in the past was written to teach us, so that through endurance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope. (Romans 15:4)”

My Bible reading has been non-existent for at least a week. I don’t even hunger or thirst for it. My mind is so preoccupied (is it because to face God’s word means to face the reality that I am not in his will with regards to my employment?). Whatever the reason, well there are no good reasons. Time with God. What if I lived as though that were the most important thing in my life?

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